Sunday, September 16, 2007

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. "

(Marideth Grey, Grey's Anatomy)

My fairy tale's over. I didn't have the happy ending i was hoping for. I prayed hard for each magical moment to last, but like what other people always say, good things never last. It is time to let go, time to snap back to reality and time leave the world of make believe. Life is not always fair. Life may be such a pain in the ass. I am ready to let go, not because i want to, but because I have to. i don't want to hurt anybody. Love can be very choking sometimes. I probably love too much, i probably give too much. Maybe it's time i give myself the love i deserve. Maybe it is time that i step out of the shadows of the people i call for help. Maybe it is time to stand on my own. They won't always be around. At the end of the day, i will be responsible for what my life has become. maybe it is just fitting that i make the most out of it.