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I am not that strong

In fact, i am very weak.I have gone through a lot and all these trials must have worn me out along the way. i am not that strong. at the end of the day, i am just a child, helpless, weak. i still cry out for help once in a while.

I never really enjoyed my childhood. i have been watched all my life. I grew to be a person who's afraid of what others have to say about me. i have always been afraid of doing something wrong. i have been very afraid of being weak, of not knowing what to do, of not knowing the answers. I am supposed to be the strong one, the smart one the one with all the answers. i feel stupid whenever i can't provide the answers even to my own inquiries. but what can i do? i am no super human, just like anybody else, i am just what i am. a child... all i can do is pray for a better tomorrow...


i am tired. fed up.