Friday, February 8, 2008

bang your head against the wall...(a wake up call)

i am not as good as i want to be. i am not as strong as i expect myself to be. i might have been expecting so much out of myself that i might have been forgetting that i can only take this in this much (demonstrating: a handful) i am no bionic-woman. i realized this when i felt sick and tired of the things i do. sick and tired, yes, sick and tired. that's where i knew. TAO LANG AKO. (I am only human)
i am weak.
i am a loser.
i get tired.
i cry.
i faint.
i get sick.
i get bored.
i give up.
i get mad.
i get sad.
but then again, i promise to arise as a victor. i will not die without putting up a good fight. Kuya Marc Will would always tell us to be exceptional in the things that we do, I'll be exceptional, I'll be great! I'll show them. hahah!

yeah, i can be a bitter piece of shit, but hey, i have my reasons for being one, and besides, i will not remain to be that piece of shit they made me to be. i am a diamond in the rough. it would take time before i grow into a fine piece of jewel, but I'll get there! conceited? i dunno. i just try to give myself the affirmation i deserve. a friend one told me, that when i feel that people don't affirm me anymore, it could be that i lack self-affirmation. that's why i try to give myself the much needed pats on my back to make me feel good.

they could break me all they want but I'll never give up, at least not because of them.


aries_arevalo_ax said...

hmm... temper your words you publish... the blog is free-publishing, but let's have prudence and courtesy when we blog. next, yeah, we all have limitations, and our setbacks (the past and the present). You are right in saying that you are in the rough. it takes time to smoothen our those parts. but don't fret over it - it only leads to evil.

ad finem. to the end. fight to the end.