on my friends...

kinopya ko lang kay yannie... i was very honest and i did not peek.... promise!
Circle of Friends


1. Camae
2. Cielo
3. april
4. enzo
5. whil
6. marius
7. ralph
8. cayo
9. chino
10. clemens
11. kuya cj
12. ron abriel
13. miggy
14. jm david
15. jayson roxas
16. aries xander
17. karen solares
18. lara lolos
19. marou
20. carlo roxas

Who is 8 going out with: siguro wala.. tingin ko wala... kasi kung meron sasabihin naman nya

Is 9 a boy or a girl: boy

Would 11 and 2 make a cute couple: kung hindi taken si cielo bakit hindi....

How about 18 and 4: wahahaha! kagulo siguro pag nagkataon...

What grade is 17 in: 3dapat 3rd year na... kaso second pa lang

When was the last time you talked to 12: kanina sa class....


What is 6's favorite show: hmmm.... wowowee??? hahaha!


Does 1 have any siblings: yup... three...

Would you ever date 3: wahahaha! si efffreell??? ayoko... hahaha! peace!

Would you ever date 7: bakit hindi??? kaso matakaw yun eh

Is 15 single: hindi yata

What's 16's last name: Arevalo

What's 5's middle name: di ko alam....

What's 10's fantasy: wahahaha! kilala ko kaso secret na lang....


Would 14 and 19 make a good couple: pwede.... pero WAG!!!!

What school does 20 go to: LIT

Tell me a random fact about 11: masarap kasama, magaling umiyak


And 1: my bestest bestfriend ever

Have you ever had a crush on 16: haha! *tawa na lang ako* hahaha! kapatid nga eh...


Where does 9 live: makati yata dati ngayon canlubang

What's 4's favorite color: green...lumot green...

Would you makeout with 14:waaaaahhhh! anu ba yun?? child abuse!!!!


Are 5 & 6 best friends: di nga sila magkakilala eh... pero pwede...


Does 7 like 20: not acquainted.

Does 8 like 19: possible


How did you meet 15: tropa ni kuya ko

Is 12 older than you: months lang. six months ata

Have you ever given 13 a hug: yup.. last monday....

Is 17 the sexiest person a live: yup... i would have to agree.... go em!!!

numbness and oblivion

repeated blows to the chest made me choose not to feel. my heart that was once empathetic is frozen with apathy . i do not to care about anything and almost everything. I find the situation quite amusing, i do not have to worry about getting hurt over and over again, i need not to fear being left behind, i need not to fear losing anything in my life. I sit here watching people around me cry and scream in pain. I must be happy about it. I really do not know. How am i to know? i choose not to entertain thoughts of feeling any emotion. i created this snow castle around me. I live in a world of oblivion. i am no cinderella, i am more like aurora, the sleeping princess. I am in a deep slumber and i don't plan on waking up any time soon. allow me to rest for a while, a little longer please...

seeing double

i live a double life...

a part of me is the shallow, loud mouth people see often... i laugh a lot and i talk a lot. i appear to be rather stupid... a push over...

the other part of me is the cold and bitter person, i speak seldomly but i have the answers. i am the thinker. this part of me is the smart one. i never let my feelings get in the way, this is the part that has forgotten to feel...
somewhere between these two hides the silent deviant... a rebel... a happy rebel... damaged, broken, scrarred, imperfect... but hey, nobody is perfect... i am trying to be normal... i am attempting to live a happy life. I am trying to see the essence of living inspite of all the pain. i am trying to let "me" show... trying to be there for people as much as possible without conforming. i am going against the norms, defying the rules... i am trying to live life the way i want to, guided by the values i have kept in my heart. i follow the inner compass that leads us all to where we're supposed to go... i am risking getting hurt and being rejected. i am embracing all my issues, i am owning my mistakes, i am living and loving it... i love. i try to be human, i am in the process of thawing my cold heart. i am in the process of regaining the ability of feeling---something that i have forgotten to do after all these years...

convinced that i am born for greater things, i try to maximize my potentials... i am done with mediocrity... gone are the years of effortless victories... i will make the most out of every opportunity laid before me... i will be someone significant....
whew... rather ambitious, don't you think???! *winks*

with you...

my life seems to have started anew...
i dunno how long this love would last...
maybe for as long as you don't know how i feel...
maybe for as long as they don't know how i feel...
but each day that passes our way,
i feel as if what i have been keeping inside will let itself out in one way or another...
not now...
please...

nine...
sensitive
sensible
understanding
sweet
rational
thoughtful
cheerful
relaxed
concerned

knowing these young men is such a great blessing...

happiness is...

having friends who'd stand by you no matter what...
friends who won't ask, they'd just understand...
friends who'd listen even if words are not spoken,
friends who'd give space to grow,
friends who'd respect one's individuality,
friends who'd love and accept one for who he/she is...

having friends like them makes my life worthwhile...
friends who make me happy...

keeping my heart out of sight

some say i have turned into someone as hard as a rock,
as cold as ice,
maybe it is because they do not understand what i am going through...
maybe it is because they really don't know me,
they judge me out of the things they hear about me,
they harshly comment on what i do,
they rarely take time to see what my intentions are...
people misunderstand me,
i am NOT my work...
i am what i am...
you just have to believe...
take time to get to know me,
maybe you'd see who i really am...
you'll see the pain I'm in...
you'll see that i am not as happy as i seem,
i am not as strong as i appear to be...

you'll see that i am broken...

and almost hopeless...

so don't go on making me feel how bad i am for being cold...
i have my reasons...
i need to keep my heart out of sight...
I'm just trying to be fair with myself...
I'm just trying to help myself heal...
give me time...